cause I love you more than I could ever promise.

Been playing Ingrid Michaelson's The Way I Am and You and I since this morning. Sweet songs. It's already the 20th of Feb! Gee. How fast. Everything passed by. Workshops submissions. Valentine's day. Now I can't wait for assessment to come. I just want to submit everything and have my short break.

Life hasn't been any easier on me for the past couple of days. In fact, it's been cruel mean to me. I've been ridiculous, for some to say. I don't really know the degree of sanity anymore. I don't understand some people. I don't understand girls who have the capability to just not putting herself in another woman's shoes. Well, I mean, at least that's my point of view as a woman. Women just somehow usually care too much about what others may feel, especially other girls. Except for some particular humans and meanwhile I don't know how to forgive these kind of people. This patheticness I've been feeling lately just somehow refuses to subside. Well, you know, humans' feelings always fade away after minutes or hours or days or even seconds. That's why scientists suggest that we count to 10 before "getting angry". It's been 2 days. Seems like it's taking into a level of bitterness. Oh, whatever. Sometimes, in life, you just have to close one eye or even pretend to be blind. That's what my mother used to say. This time around, I'd pretend to be deaf, blind and mute.. and ridiculous.

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.

Decided to blog, taking my rest after drawing 4 hours straight cause I probably won't be able to sleep next Sunday + Monday trying to finish my photoshop project. If I'm done with my drawing work, I could sleep on Tuesday all night long. Why am I explaining this. Anyway. Back ache, but kinda satisfied with my drawing. Too lazy to post everything here, but this is my favourite. *Show off* *face palm* It's not bad for a first trial of pen shading. Waste my ink though.

Moving on. This day is very different from the days I had for the past 10 months? I miss you. i've been a pain in the ass lately, I know. I should learn to control my anger. I don't know what's been bothering me lately. Oh God. What could be sadder than seeing your loved one sad because of you. Okay, should stop blaming on myself.

Hi from JessieBunnyy <3

cao.